All These Years I Had Been Sustained By An Illusion-happiness Through Victory- And Now That Illusion Was Burned To Ashes. I Was No More Happier, No More Fullfilled, For All My Achievements. Finally I Saw Through The Clouds I Saw That I Had Never Learned How To Enjoy Life, Only How To Achieve. All My Life I Had Been Busy Seeking Happiness, But Never Finding It Or Sustaining It.