The Worst Pain In The World Is

I Was Never Somebody Who Grew Up Going, 'i Really Want To Be A Singer In A Band,' And I Never Had Any Ambition Toward Anything, Really.

I Volunteered At Ucla's Occupational Therapy Ward, Where There Are Lots Of Kids With Autism And Emotional Problems. I Just Wanted To Prove To Myself That I Could Not Break Down And Cry At Everything, And That I Could Just Help Somebody Else. The One Thing I Really Remember Was That When We Would Take Them Out Of The Hospital For A Walk Around Campus, They Would Freak Out The Most When We Were Waiting For The Elevator. I Remember The Guy At The Elevator Said To Himself, "transitions Are The Hardest." And I Said To Myself, "transitions Are Always The Hardest."

Everything That Happens With Me Gets Made Out To Be A Fiasco, But I Have Every Right To Do Everything I've Ever Done. I Stand By Everything I've Ever Said, Apologies Included.

Sometimes Interviews Are Fun And Good Conversations, But Stuff Like Photo Shoots And Appearances At Places Where You Have To Meet A Lot Of People - I Was Never Really Made For This Kind Of Stuff.

I Might Sound Crazy About This But, Years Ago, My Mom Told Me: "we Almost Died When You Were Born. Both Of Us." I Was A Caesarean Baby, And The Doctor Who Delivered Me Later Told Me, "i Opened Your Mother Up, And You Were Right There. It Freaked Me Out Because Everything Was Broken And Out-there." I've Thought About It A Lot - Could This Have Something To Do With The Fact That I'm Only Happy When I'm At Home And Alone? Maybe I Was Just Freaking Out For Two Weeks Before I Was Born, Feeling Really Insecure.