I Was Never Somebody Who Grew Up

I Got Into Therapy In The Fifth Grade Because I Said In A Sarcastic Way That I Was Going To Kill Myself, And They Didn't Get It Then. Nothing's Changed.

It Pisses Me Off To Think We're Conditioned To Push Away Bad Feelings And Think Anything That's Uncomfortable Is To Be Avoided. When Things Are Really Bad Nowadays, I Recognize The Value In It Because It's Me Filling My Quota- It's Going To Make My Joy More Intense Later.

I'm Not A Functional Person Because I Don't Go On Lunch Dates With Friends. I Hear About People Having Dinner Parties But I Never Do That. I'm Not Really Human.

I Don't Want To Be One Of Those People Who Claim To Hate Labels, But It's True. I Even Feel That We've Got It All Wrong With The Whole Gay/straight Thing. There Is A Spectrum. Everybody Is Completely Different. Some People Are Way Over On This Side Of The Spectrum, Some Are On The Other Side, And Some Are Crossed In Certain Ways.

The Truth Is It's Fun To Be Up There And Know That You're In Your Underwear. Even Though I Know I'm Exploiting My Sexuality In A Certain Way, It's Fun! It Boosts My Ego.