In Madness, I Thought I Was The

Statistically, It Would Seem Improbable That Any Mathematician Or Scientist, At The Age Of 66, Would Be Able Through Continued Research Efforts, To Add Much To His Or Her Previous Achievements. However I Am Still Making The Effort And It Is Conceivable That With The Gap Period Of About 25 Years Of Partially Deluded Thinking Providing A Sort Of Vacation My Situation May Be Atypical. Thus I Have Hopes Of Being Able To Achieve Something Of Value Through My Current Studies Or With Any New Ideas That Come In The Future.

I Later Spent... Five To Eight Months In Hospitals In New Jersey, Always On An Involuntary Basis, And Always Attempting A Legal Argument For Release.

Gradually I Began To Intellectually Reject Some Of The Delusionally Influenced Lines Of Thinking Which Had Been Characteristic Of My Orientation. This Began, Most Recognizably, With The Rejection Of Politically-oriented Thinking As Essentially A Hopeless Waste Of Intellectual Effort.

I Know That If I Could Really Understand Mental Illness, Then It Would Be Appropriate To Make A Big Career Shift. I Would Become A Therapist And A Leader In Terms Of Mental Illness. But I'm Not In The Position.

Nowadays We Can Do Computer Experiments Using Mathematica, And Even Solve A System Of 42 Equations. This Offers Another Route To Knowledge, Rather Than Mere Ideas.