I'm Kind Of This Control Freak That

I Was Darkly Convinced That At Age 52 I Would Kill Myself Because My Mother Committed Suicide At That Age. I Was Fantasizing That She Was Waiting For Me On The Other Side Of The Grave.

I'm Kind Of This Control Freak That Likes To Create His Own Hells Before The Real One Can Get To Him

If I Can Make People Laugh It's Like Being A Good Lover.

I Fantasize About Going Back To High School With The Knowledge I Have Now. I Would Shine. I Would Have A Good Time, I Would Have A Girlfriend. I Think That's Where A Lot Of My Pain Comes From. I Think I Never Had Any Teenage Years To Go Back To.

I Consulted A Therapist At Mass. General. After About 20 Minutes, He Stopped Me And Said, 'you're Just A Big Existential Garbage Pail. Go Home And Relax.'