How Many Times Had I Let Myself

If I Had A Chance With Him, I Missed It. No, I Didn't Miss It. I Threw It Away.

Half Of Them Kept Repeating My Name, Trying To Get It Right, While The Other Half Laughed. But They Were Harmless. Fun Drunks Make A Nice Addition To Any Party: Not Looking To Fight. Not Looking To Score. Just Looking To Get Drunk And Laugh. I Remember Those Guys. Like The Mascots Of The Party. "clay! Whatcha Doon Here? Bah-ha-ha-ha!

Will I Ever Get Control Of My Life? Will I Always Be Shoved Back And Pushed Around By Those I Trust?

And It Feels Strange, Almost Sad, To Walk Through Ther Empty Halls. Each Step I Take Sounds So Lonely.

The Young Adult Literature Is Relatively New - It Just Kind Of Exploded In The 2000s. When I Grew Up, There Weren't Bookstores With Sections Dedicated To Teen Lit, Nor Was My Generation Raised Reading Books Written Specifically For Us. Because Of That, Today We Still Think Of Books For Teens As Children's Books And So When You Write A Book That Includes Sensitive Topics, It Just Seems Even More Controversial. What's Troubling To Me About That Is These Are Issues Adults Know That Teens Deal With. Not Writing About Them Makes Them Something We Don't, Or Can't Talk About.