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Depression Is A Physical Illness.

I Could Not Bounce Back From My Divorce - Emotionally - I Just Could Not Bounce Back. With Any Bad Situations I’d Experienced Before - A Bad Game Or My Two Previous Divorces - I Got Over Them. This Time I Just Could Not Get Out Of The Hole. The Anxiety Attacks Were Frequent And Extensive. I Had Weight Loss, Which I’d Never Had Before. I Couldn’t Stop Crying. And If I Wasn’t Crying, I Was Angry, Bitter, Hateful And Mean-spirited. I Couldn’t Sleep - Couldn’t Concentrate. It Just Got Crazy.

You Find Out In Life That People Really Like You Funny. So What Do You Give 'em? Humor. And Then If You Show Them The Other Side, They Don't Like You As Much. I Find, Too, That I Can Hide Behind The Idiot's Mask Being Funny, And You Never See The Sorrow Or The Pain.

I Kept Hearing I'd Be Traded To San Francisco. Man I Would Love That. I Even Went So Far As To Go Into The Locker Room Singing 'i Left My Heart In San Francisco'. Nobody Laughed Or Said A Word. I Figured Maybe I'd Get My Wish

I Just See Too Many People Retire And Say, 'i'm Going To Take Off, Travel, Spend Time With My Family' And They Are Just Miserable. They End Up Dying. People Who Work And Stay Active, And Like What They Are Doing, Live Longer.