Whenever You're In Any Acting Role You

Make Lots Of Money. Enjoy The Work. Operate Within The Law. Choose Any Two Of Three

I Had A Longing For Ritual, Something I Could Cling To, A Routine To Make Me Feel Well And Contented. I Hoped That Reading Bible Commentaries And Theological Critiques Would Nudge Me Closer To Some Kind Of Absolute That I Could Hold Up As A Torch To Light My Way.

My Character, Rick Spleen, Is A What-if Version Of Me, Really, Where Nothing Did Quite Turn Out Right And Everything Else Is Still Around The Corner.

In Particular, I Found Praying Very Disturbing, Like Swimming With Bricks Tied To Your Feet. And Yet I Was Drawn To It Constantly.

I Tend Not To Trust People Who Live In Very Tidy Houses. I Know That On The Surface There Is Nothing Wrong With A Person Being Well-ordered And Disciplined. Nothing, Except That It Leaves The Impression Of That Person Having Lived In The Confines Of A Stark Institution Which, Although He Or She Has Long Since Left, Remains Within.