When I'm Onstage, I'm More In The

I Am Inspired By Thinkers. I Am Inspired By Rebellion. I Am Inspired By Children. I Have Been Inspired By Love. I Have Been Inspired By Heartbreak. I Try To Take Everything That Comes At Me In Life. There Have Been Times In My Life That I Didn't Handle Things... Right. But Even Though You Stumble, You Still Kind Of Get Through It.

After I Binged Last Night -or Was It Tonight - I Was Convinced Yet Again That There Were People Coming To Get Me. It Was More Than Just Shadows And Voices, More Than Just Fantasies....it Was Real, And I Was Scared To My Core.my Bones Were Shaking...m Heart Was Pounding...i Thought I Was Going To Explode. I'm Glad I Have You To Talk To, To Write This Down. I Tried To Keep It All Together, But Then I Gave In To The Manes And Became One With My Insanity.

When I First Started Seeing (the Show) Come Together, I Was Blown Away. It Is Unbelievable. And To See Vince Singing, And Behind Him Girls Hanging By Chains, And Harleys On The Stage And The Pyrotechnics Going It's Like, This Is What I Want To See In Rock 'n' Roll.

How Lucky Can One Guy Get? I Was A Runaway, And Then I Was In One Of The Biggest Bands In The World. I've Sold Out Every Arena. I've Sold Millions And Millions Of Records.

I'm Finding That People Reading The Book [the Heroin Diaries: A Year In The Life Of A Shattered Rock Star] Are Saying, "you Came From One Background, I Came From This Background - You Were A Rock Star, I Was A Ceo. I Didn't Have A Heroin/coke Problem, But I Had A Pill Problem. But I Also Fell From Grace, Didn't Know How To Get Recovery, And I Am Now In Recovery." People Tell Me That Their Kids Read It And Told Them They'll Never Do Drugs - "this Book Really Shows Me Where It Goes."