No One Gets To Start Where They

She Understood What It Was Like To Stand Right In Front Of People You Loved, Even Though They Could Not See You.

You Know, Michael, I Used To Sit Around Looking For A Way To Make Sense Of What Happened, Like There Was Some Kind Of Answer I Could Find If I Just Looked Hard Enough. Then One Day I Realized That If There Had Been One, Dave Would Still Be Here. And I Wondered If This...this Feeling That I Couldn't Figure It All Out...was What Dave Had Been Feeling, Too.

There Is A Gulf As Wide As An Ocean Between Should And Want, And I Am Drowning In It.

In Half Hour My Mother Has Managed To Give Me What My Father Couldn't: My Past.

It Feels Like A Punch. Tears Fill My Eyes, And I Wonder How I Could Be Upset Over Losing Something I Never Had.