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Leah: "that Is Easily The Freakin’ Grossest Thing I’ve Ever Heard In My Life. Yuck. If There Was Anything In My Stomach, It Would Be Coming Back." Seth: "they Are Vampires, I Guess. I Mean, It Makes Sense, And If It Helps Bella, It’s A Good Thing, Right?" Leah And Jake Stare At Seth. Seth: "what?" Leah: "mom Dropped Him A Lot When He Was A Baby." Jake: "on His Head Apparently." Leah: "he Used To Gnaw On The Crib Bars, Too." Jake: "lead Paint?" Leah: "looks Like It." Seth: "funny. Why Don’t You Two Shut Up And Sleep?

I Peeked Up At Him One More Time, And Regretted It. He Was Glaring Down At Me Again, His Black Eyes Full Of Revulsion. As I Flinched Away From Him, Shrinking Against My Chair, The Phrase If Looks Could Kill Suddenly Ran Through My Mind.

It Will Be As If I'd Never Existed. The Words Ran Through My Head, Lacking The Perfect Clarity Of My Hallucination Last Night. They Were Just Words, Soundless, Like Print On A Page. Just Words, But They Ripped The Hole Wide Open, And I Stomped On The Brake, Knowing I Should Not Drive While This Incapacitated. I Curled Over, Pressing My Face Against The Steering Wheel And Trying To Breathe Without Lungs.

But The Absence Of Him Is Everywhere I Look. It's Like A Huge Hole Has Been Punched Through My Chest.

I Don't Have The Strength To Stay Away From You Anymore