I've Started The Adoption Process... I Really

Like Me, Marilyn Monroe Had Suffered At The Hands Of Some Not Very Nice Men. She Was Used, Unappreciated And Struggled To Find Herself. She Worked Her Way Up In Hollywood With Stars In Her Eyes And A Kind Heart, But Found That Hollywood Wasn't Always As Kind In Return. She May Have Been Publicly Adored, Idolized And Lusted After, But She Felt Alone And Trapped.

That's How Disagreements Always Ended With Hugh Hefner; He Would Just Stomp Off, And You Were Left To Pick The Pieces Of Your Self-worth Up Off The Floor. I'd Invested Every Part Of Myself In The Mansion And Had Nothing Waiting For Me Outside Those Gates. I Felt So Trapped And So Vulnerable To His Criticisms.

I've Had Two Romances Since Moving To Las Vegas. One Was With Somebody 12 Years Older Than Me, And The Other Was The Same Age, And Neither Worked Out. I Know People Still Think Of Me As One Of Hugh Hefner's Girlfriends, And He Of Course Was Much Older Than Me, But That Was A Whole Different Lifestyle And A Different Kind Of Dating.

My Main Motivation For Staying In The Spotlight At All Is, I Don't Want To Just Be Known For Being Involved In 'playboy,' Or Having Been Hugh Hefner's Girlfriend - I Hate That. I Like To Show I Can Do Other Things And Take On Other Challenges. That's My Main Motivation.

I Wish Ghosts Were Real!