In A Dream It's Typical Not To

In A Dream It's Typical Not To Be Rational.

I Had Been Offered Fellowships To Enter As A Graduate Student At Either Harvard Or Princeton. But The Princeton Fellowship Was Somewhat More Generous, Since I Had Not Actually Won The Putnam Competition... Thus Princeton Became The Choice For My Graduate Study Location.

Gradually I Began To Intellectually Reject Some Of The Delusionally Influenced Lines Of Thinking Which Had Been Characteristic Of My Orientation. This Began, Most Recognizably, With The Rejection Of Politically-oriented Thinking As Essentially A Hopeless Waste Of Intellectual Effort.

Statistically, It Would Seem Improbable That Any Mathematician Or Scientist, At The Age Of 66, Would Be Able Through Continued Research Efforts, To Add Much To His Or Her Previous Achievements. However I Am Still Making The Effort And It Is Conceivable That With The Gap Period Of About 25 Years Of Partially Deluded Thinking Providing A Sort Of Vacation My Situation May Be Atypical. Thus I Have Hopes Of Being Able To Achieve Something Of Value Through My Current Studies Or With Any New Ideas That Come In The Future.

I Would Not Dare To Say That There Is A Direct Relation Between Mathematics And Madness, But There Is No Doubt That Great Mathematicians Suffer From Maniacal Characteristics, Delirium And Symptoms Of Schizophrenia.