I'm Thrilled With How My Career Is

I Realised How Paranoid And Guarded And Not Trusting - Walled-in - I Had Become. Not Consciously So, But Just This Armour That I Kind Of Have, Protective Armour. It's Not For My Friends Or Family, But For Being.outside In The World, Always On Guard.

Being This Side Of 40 Feels Like What I Should Have Felt Being This Side Of 25: In My Body, In My Heart, Happy With My Life, And Ok With Whatever Bumps In The Road Present Themselves.

I've Gone For Each Type: The Rough Guy; The Nerdy, Sweet, Lovable Guy; And The Slick Guy. I Don't Really Have A Type. Men In General Are A Good Thing.

I Entertain For A Living, And I Entertain.

I Am Grateful To Learn From Their Mistakes, Because I Am Not Injecting S- Into My Face. I See Them And My Heart Breaks. I Think, 'oh God, If You Only Know How Much Older You Look.' They Are Trying To Stop The Clock And All You Can See Is An Insecure Person Who Won't Let Themselves Just Age. I Also Have A Fiancé Who Will Put A Gun To My Head If I Touch My Face In Any Way.