I Will Say, As A Woman, When

You'd Hope That No Writing About Music Could Supersede The Music Itself. But I Do Think That Blogs Mirror The Way That We Are Listening. It Comes At You Fast And It's Timely And Then Five Minutes Later We're On To Something Else. It Caters To Our Desire For Instant Gratification. And I Think Blogs Also Have Fluidity That's Exciting. You Have A Lot Of Real Enthusiastic Music Fans For The Most Part That Are Writing Sometimes For A Large Audience, And I Think Certain Blogs Have A Little Too Much Power Over What Someone Likes Or Doesn't Like.

I Have To Erase My Google Search Histories, Because They Always Lead To An Obituary.

I Always Felt That The Most Common Thread In My Life From When I Was Young Until Now Has Been A Highly Observant, Very Analytical Mind.

I Grew Up Outside Of Seattle, And Have Lived Here My Whole Life, And I Think That There Is A Culture Of Questioning, And Guilt. Almost An "anti-ambition." Like, An Awareness, And Then A Subsequent Guilt. But Sometimes That Progressive, Liberal Guilt Is Really Obnoxious, Too - In Some Ways, I Think It's Better To Just Own It. It's Weird, That Actually, The Acknowledgement Of Privilege Or The Enactment Of Guilt Can Be As Obnoxious As Anything Else. It's A Never-ending Rabbit Hole. We're Really In A Rabbit Hole Right Now, With This Conversation. We're Just Spiraling Down Into The Void.

Even If, Personally, I'm In A Place Of Contentment Or Solidity, I Feel Like It's Hard Not To Look Out Into American Culture And See Vast Inequity, Widespread Institutionalized Violence And Racism And Transphobia And Environmental Destruction. It's Hard To Be In This World And Feel A Sense Of Innate Satisfaction At All. There's Plenty Of Things To Feel Unsettled About.