I Was A Very Self-righteous 15-25 Year

If I Think Back To Every Rehearsal Process For Every Play I've Ever Worked On, There's Just So Much Crying At Home. I Barely Sleep. There Are Moments Of Deep Despair And Anxiety, And Then There Are Moments In Rehearsal That Are The Most Exhilarating; Feeling Seen And Seeing Everybody. Feeling Like You Have A Purpose On The Planet. A Huge Part Of The Process I Enjoy Is Watching The Actors Figuring Out What They Can Handle And What They Can Take And What They Need From The Director And Me.

I'm Terrible At Speaking Extemporaneously About My Work - I Get Completely Tongue-tied And Consumed With Fear.

I Feel With Writing, So Much Of The Time, I Don't Know How To Tap In And Be Spontaneous And Alive On A Daily Basis. So I Don't Write Every Day. I'm Just Not Disciplined, And I Can't Be In The Groove Most Of The Time. I Feel Like I'm In The Groove Ten Days A Year Or Something. But With Reading And Research, I Feel Like I Have This Incredibly Instinctive Pleasure-driven Process That Ends Up Working Out For Me And Inspiring Me. It's Almost Like A Maze, Like I Know Eventually I'll Hit The Heart Of My Play If I Read Enough Books.

I Was 22 And Stopped Writing Plays, And I Didn't Start Again Until I Was 25. I Was Writing Badly. In College, I Attempted To Write These More Conventional Plays, But The Theater I Loved Was Downtown Experimental Theater. I Didn't Feel Like I Could Do That Either. It Didn't Occur To Me To Do My Own Thing.

I Was A Very Self-righteous 15-25 Year Old. Anyway, I Wake Up Every Morning And Thank God I'm Not A Kid Anymore.