I Think If The World Were A

In Moments When I Question If I Should Be Having Kids, I Think Of All Those Phone Calls From My Sister-in-law, In Which, 3,000 Miles Away, I Hear My Nephews Screaming For Her Attention. I Tell Her I Have To Go Because I Am Packing To Leave For Europe, And Her Tone Flatlines: "that Must Be Nice."

I Was Always Being Told Off At School. The Teachers Would Say: 'everyone's Talking, But You're The One I Can Hear.

I Was Overcome By The Holy Ghost One Time, But In A Baptist Way. I Was Six Or Seven, And I Was Saved. I Just Cried And Cried. It Was Joy!

When I Moved Out Of My Mom's House At 18 I Was Almost As Sad To Leave Her Sewing Machine Behind As Anything Else.

I Feel Sorry... For People Who've Had Skinny Privilege And Then Have It Taken Away From Them. I Have Had A Lifetime To Adjust To Seeing How People Treat Women Who Aren't Their Idea Of Beautiful And Therefore Aren't Their Idea Of Useful, And I Had To Find Ways To Become Useful To Myself.