I Haven't Lost A War. No One

I Haven't Lost A War. No One Got Killed. I Just Lost A Tennis Match.

The Eyes Of Some Of The Fans At Davis Cup Matches Scare Me. There's No Light In Them. Fixed Emotions. Blind Worship. Horror. It Makes Me Think Of What Happened To Us Long Ago.

I Drew My Strength From Fear. Fear Of Losing. I Don't Remember The Games I Won, Only The Games I Lost.

If I Go Into A Club Now, All The Blonde Girls Leave My Corner And All The Black Girls Come Into My Corner. It's As If I'm Racist Towards White Girls!

Does Anyone Ask Their Parents How They Are Conceived?