I Had Seen These Transformations, People Who

It's Weird, I Was Such A Survivor And So Wanted To Be A Part Of Life While I Was Trying To Snuff Out The Life That Was Inside Of Me. I Had This Duality Of Trying To Kill Myself With Drugs, Then Eating Really Good Food And Exercising And Going Swimming And Trying To Be A Part Of Life. I Was Always Going Back And Forth On Some Level.

That's A Spiritual Lifestyle, Being Willing To Admit That You Don't Know Everything And That You Were Wrong About Some Things. It's About Making A List Of All The People You've Harmed, Either Emotionally Or Physically Or Financially, And Going Back And Making Amends. That's A Spiritual Lifestyle. It's Not A Fluffy Ethereal Concept.

Honestly, I'm Really Just A Teddy Bear.

I Never Felt Like Dying Was A Good Idea.

When I Looked Into Her Eyes, I Saw An Invisible Spirit Of Something That I Already Loved.