I Am Nowhere Near My Limit. I

I Want People To Be Inspired That I've Always Strived For Excellence And I've Always Gone Beyond What Anybody Ever Thought I Could Do, What I Thought I Myself Could Do. And I've Allowed Myself To Be Inspired, Kept My Eyes Open And My Senses Open To Inspiration Around Me.

Sport That Consumed Me For Over Two Decades . . . Is Now Gone. Now It's Just Me. No Pressure, No Expectations, No Need To Be Fast, Good, Strong Or To Even Improve. Yet I Can't Let Go Of This Idea That I Always Need To Be More Than I Am. And It Is Eating Me Alive.

The Struggle I Went Through Has Value.

I Had Some Experience In Dealing With People Who Have Mental Illness And Depression, But I Didn't See The Signs In Myself. I Couldn't Ask For Help Because I Didn't Know I Needed Help.

Ive Had So Many Experiences In Cycling, But In Some Ways I Have Nothing Left To Prove. I Have Achieved More Than I Could Have Dreamed Of, Ive Raced A Lot Longer Than I Thought I Would. I Know I Can Still Be Better, But I Just Dont Know If I Love It Enough Any More.