For Me, The Past Is Dead. Can't

No One I Interact With - Except Maybe For Family And Strangers At The Russian Baths And Other Weird Places I May Go To - Is Just Friends Or Lovers With Me: They Also Know Something Of My Writing And This Distorts Their Take On Me.

I Need To Stay In The Present And Use That New-age Mantra: 'i'm Okay Right Now.' But I Worry About All The Things I'm Failing At Every Moment.

I Promote My Own Self-hatred.

I'm Actually Much More Shy And Self-conscious Than People's Perception Of Me.

A Lot Of Writing Is A Form Of Seeing - Putting Down What You See In Terms Of Action And Landscape.