Dear Jacob, I Win. Sincerely, Edward

The Worst Part Is That I Saw The Whole Thing -- Our Whole Life. And I Want It Bad, Jake, I Want It All. I Want To Stay Right Here And Never Move. I Want To Love You And Make You Happy. And I Can't, And It's Killing Me.

There Really Is Something Irresistible About A Lost Cause.

Stop Being So...optimistic, Its Getting On My Nerves." "no Problem. Do You Want Me To Be All Gloom And Doom Or Just Shut Up?" "just Shut Up." "can Do." "really? Doesn't Seem Like It." -jacob And Seth

He Was A Different Edward Than The One I Had Known. And I Felt All The More Besotted By Him. It Would Cause Me Physical Pain To Be Separated From Him Now.

So, Instead Of Panicking, I Closed My Eyes And Spent The Twenty Minutes' Drive With Edward. I Imagined That I Had Stayed At The Airport To Meet Edward. I Visualized How I Would Stand On My Toes, The Sooner To See His Face. How Quickly, How Gracefully He Would Move Through The Crowds Of People Separating Us. And Then I Would Run To Close Those Last Few Feet Between Us - Reckless As Always - And I Would Be In His Marble Arms, Finally Safe.