All The Physical Comes From The Mental.

The Only Reason I've Shared My Story Is To Take That Tiny Baby Step Of Breaking Down The Stigma Attached To Depression.

I Love Skating So Much And I Feel Like Every Time I Step Out Onto The Ice, That's What I'm Meant To Do.

Sport That Consumed Me For Over Two Decades . . . Is Now Gone. Now It's Just Me. No Pressure, No Expectations, No Need To Be Fast, Good, Strong Or To Even Improve. Yet I Can't Let Go Of This Idea That I Always Need To Be More Than I Am. And It Is Eating Me Alive.

With Athletes, It's Never Fully Understood The Level To Which We Push Ourselves. Especially In An Endurance Sport.

Ive Had So Many Experiences In Cycling, But In Some Ways I Have Nothing Left To Prove. I Have Achieved More Than I Could Have Dreamed Of, Ive Raced A Lot Longer Than I Thought I Would. I Know I Can Still Be Better, But I Just Dont Know If I Love It Enough Any More.