You Can Only Control Your Own Actions.

Did She Ever Regret Her Choices? Were Her Decisions More Clear-cut Than Mine - Or Are There Always Shades Of Gray Whe It Comes To Matters Of The Heart?

But I Have Learned That You Can't Just Create Your Own Timetable And Will It To Come True.

I Think I Hoped For Something More. Maybe I Even Hoped That I Could Find In Richard What I Had With Ben. But It Is Suddenly Very Clear: Richard Is Not Fallin In Love With Me And I'm Not Falling In Love With Richard. We Are Not Creating Anything Permanent Or Special. We Are Only Having Fun Together. It Is A Fling- A Fling Just Like He Said Last Night- A Fling With An Ending Yet To Be Determined. I Feel Relieved To Have It Defined

I Think The Most Well-adjusted People Live In The Present With An Eye Toward The Future - I'm Not Among Those.

I Find My Voice And Manage To Say Those Three One-syllable Words Back To Him. Words I Haven't Uttered In A Very, Very Long Time. Words That Meant Nothing Before Now.