When I Don't Feel Free And Can't

You're Playing And You Think Everything Is Going Fine. Then One Thing Goes Wrong. And Then Another. And Another. You Try To Fight Back, But The Harder You Fight, The Deeper You Sink. Until You Can't Move... You Can't Breathe... Because You're In Over Your Head. Like Quicksand.

I Thank The Earth And The Sky Everyday For The Opportunities I’ve Had.

I Hope I Get The Bliss. And I Know I'm Going To Have To Work For It. But I've Got To Say, Really, I Have No Kind Of, Can I Say "secular Religiosity"? ... I Don't Have A Denominational Sight.

I Attempt To Connect With My Muse And Go On Demon Rides.

I Had The Classic 40 Meltdown, I Did. It's Embarrassing. It Was Pretty Funny. But Then I Recovered. To Me, It Was Like A Second Adolescence. Hormonally, My Body Was Changing, My Mind Was Changing, And So My Relationship To Myself And The World Around Me Came To This Assault Of Finiteness.