We All Must Develop A Grounded Clarity

It's Been A Thrilling Journey - I Have Had To Really Learn That An Orchestra Is An Entity - It's A Creature. I Have Been Calling It The Dragon And The Conductor Is The Dragon Tamer. And You Just Have To ... Ride And Don't Let Go And You Will Be Fine.

There Certainly Are Situations Where I Feel Not Empowered Or Uninspired. Particularly When The Person's Agenda Is To Intimidate Through Abusing Their Position Or Their Authority. When I Am Present And In A Nonreactive State, Then I Can Become Like Snake And Slide Through Their "intimidation Net" Back Into The Creative Plane. When I Am In A Reactive State, I Usually Regret Responding, Because Usually All That Happens Is That The Intimidator Feels Righteously Vindicated.

In Order For My Live Performance To Work, Which Is About Generating A Focused Energy For About An Hour And A Half, It Is Necessary For Me To Listen And Take In Someone Else's Focused Energy The Day Of Or The Day Before The Live Show. That Can Transpire Through A Conversation, Or Inspiration Can Occur By Looking Through Any Type Of Visual Book Which Sparks A Narrative. That Narrative Then Becomes Today's Seed And Can Then Take Root In Music Terms, Where A Sonic Tree Begins To Grow.

I'm Really Into Moderation. Too Much Of Anything Will Harm You In The End. Too Much Sugar. Too Much Pasta. I'm Into Drugs As A Teaching Tool, Which Is Why I Only Take Hallucinogenics. I Mean, It's Not Like I've Never Done Cocaine, But, On The Whole, If I Can't See Dancing Elephants Then I'm Not Interested.

I Know That Mess Spelled Backwards Is Ssem And I Felt Much Better Armed With That Information.