To Be Able To Love And Live

No Relief Was Forthcoming From My Then-catholic Faith, Which Said The Practice Of Homosexuality Was A 'mortal Sin' Subject To Damnation.

I Realized That I Had Screwed Up My Life Living Different Parts Of My Life In Different Places. I Wasn't Whole. I Wasn't Integrated. I Wasn't A Complete Person. And After That, Came Out, Spent Some Time At A Psychiatric Hospital.

Throughout My Life, I Have Grappled With My Own Identity, Who I Am. As A Young Child, I Often Felt Ambivalent About Myself; In Fact, Confused.

At Different Points In My Life, I Had Grappled With The Idea Of Going Into The Priesthood - In High School Or Law School. Where It Ends, I'm Not Quite Sure. Perhaps It Ends With Death, Grappling With One's Spirituality.

Being Gay Is A Fundamental Part Of My Being - The Core Of Who I've Always Been, And The Thing That I Had Repressed And Run From All My Life.