Sometimes I'm Angry, Sometimes I'm Not Angry.

I Wanted To Be In Film. I Wanted To Be A Film Student, Possibly Be A Director Or Cinematographer, Not An Actor. That Was My Goal. I Didn't Believe I Had The Physical Beauty That I'd Seen Projected And Advertised In Movies, In Theater. It Just Wasn't For Me.

My Mother Really Wanted Me To Be In Possibly A Beauty Pageant, Not Only For If I Could Win, But It Helped Improve My Self-image Because Of Trauma In My Childhood And Other Issues.

My Passion Is To Tell Stories That Reflect Humanity.

When You Come From An Environment That's Military, And They Don't Stress That Topic Of Aesthetics Or Beauty Pageants And Makeup, There Are A Lot Of Things You Just Don't Have That City Girls Have. Or The Country Girl Who Goes To Movies And Dreams Of Going To Hollywood As An Actress.

Me And My Sisters Were Taught That If Our Eyes Worked And Our Legs Worked, We Were Beautiful. We Had So Many Kids In Our Family That If We All Got In Front Of The Mirror And Were Ashamed Of Browns And Golds And Yellows And Whites, And We Believed What Society Told Us - That The Darker People Were Less Attractive And The Lighter Ones Were Prettier - We Would Have Had Sibling Murders. My Family, Being Half-rural And Half-military, Just Came From A Different Place.