Sometimes I’m Afraid That I’m Losing Myself.

Like Everything In Life, I Just Had To Decide What To Do With What I Was Given.

Woo!" Emmett Suddenly Boomed In His Deep Bass. "go Gators!" Jacob And Charlie Jumped. The Rest Of Us Froze. Charlie Recovered, Then Looked At Emmett Over His Shoulder. "florida Winning?" "just Scored The First Touchdown," Emmett Confirmed. He Shot A Look In My Direction, Wagging His Eyebrows Like A Villain In Vaudville. "'bout Time Somebody Scored Around Here.

It Will Be As If I'd Never Existed. The Words Ran Through My Head, Lacking The Perfect Clarity Of My Hallucination Last Night. They Were Just Words, Soundless, Like Print On A Page. Just Words, But They Ripped The Hole Wide Open, And I Stomped On The Brake, Knowing I Should Not Drive While This Incapacitated. I Curled Over, Pressing My Face Against The Steering Wheel And Trying To Breathe Without Lungs.

In My Dream It Was Very Dark, And What Dim Light There Was Seemed To Be Radiating From Edward's Skin. I Couldn't See His Face, Just His Back As He Walked Away From Me, Leaving Me In The Blackness. No Matter How Fast I Ran, I Couldn't Catch Up To Him; No Matter How Loud I Called, He Never Turned. Troubled, I Woke In The Middle Of The Night And Couldn't Sleep Again For What Seemed Like A Very Long Time. After That, He Was In My Dreams Nearly Every Night, But Always On The Periphery, Never Within Reach.

I Thought I'd Explained It Clearly Before. Bella, I Can't Live In A World Where You Don't Exist.