Sometimes Getting Upset With Yourself Is Necessary

When I Was 14, I Felt Very Rundown; I Had A Home To Go To, But I Felt Like I Was 60 Or Something, Older Than I Feel Now. And I Don't Know If It's Something That Happens At 14, Or Whether It Was Adolescence Or Whether I Was Gay, Or Closeted Gay, Or Whatever It Was, I Felt That.

I've Told People Who Have Just Started To Make A Film That The One Thing You Might Experience Is This Feeling That Everybody Is Conspiring Against You, Because You're Not Necessarily Able To Tell What's Real And What's Not.

Even When You're Making A Movie About Life, Death Is A Presence, And I Guess It's Part Of My Dramatic Viewpoint. I'm Not Sure Why Exactly.

Yeah, Kubrick's A Big Influence. In Something Like 'a Clockwork Orange,' He Is Trying To Use The Practical Light - I Mean, At Least He Says That In His Interviews, Like They're Not Using Traditionally Hollywood Lights. In 'elephant' We Basically Used No Lights; We Never Really Adjusted.

I Have This New Theory About Films. It's Almost Like Astrology, Where If We Started On A Tuesday The Film Will Be Different Than If We Started On A Wednesday. Not Because Of The Planets. It's That Sometimes You Start With The Wrong Balance And The Whole Thing Gets Messed Up.