Promises. I Was Drowning In Promises.

It Is Terrifying,” Said Adrian. “and Weird, For Lack Of A Better Word. And Part Of You Knows… Well, Part Of You Knows Something’s Not Right. That Your Thinking’s Not Right. But What Do You About That? All We Can Go On Is What We Think, How We See The World. If You Can’t Trust Your Own Mind, What Can You Trust? What Other People Tell You?

Once When I Was Ninth Grade I Had To Write A Paper On A Poem. One Of The Lines Was"if Your Eyes Weren't Open You Wouldn't Know The Difference Between Dreaming And Waking' It Hadn't Meant Meant Much To Me At The Time. After All There'd Been A Guy In The Class That I Liked So How Could I Be Expected To Pay Attention To Literary Analysis? Now Three Year Later I Understand The Poem Perfectly.

The Training Part," I Guessed. "yup. You're Going To Be Dimitri's Partner." A Moment Of Funny Silence Fell, Probably Not Noticeable To Anyone Except Dimitri And Me. Our Eyes Met. "guarding Partner," Dimitri Clarified Unnecessarily, Like Maybe He Too Had Been Thinking Of Other Kinds Of Partners.

Keeping Love Buried Was A Lot Like Jeeping Anger Pent Up, I'd Learned. It Just Ate You Up Insides Until You Wanted To Scream Or Kick Something.

Day 24. Situation Is Growing Worse. My Captors Continue To Find New And Horrific Ways To Torture Me. When Not Working, Agent Scarlet Spends Her Days Examining Fabric Swatches For Bridesmaid Dresses And Going On About How In Love She Is. This Usually Causes Agent Boring Borscht To Regale Us With Stories Of Russian Weddings That Are Even More Boring Than His Usual Ones. My Attempts At Escape Have Been Thwarted Thus Far. Also, I Am Out Of Cigarettes. Any Assistance Or Tobacco Products You Can Send Will Be Greatly Appreciated. -prisoner 24601