On The Day, Therefore, When I Went

So Far As I Know, There Were No Pains Taken To Preserve Secrecy On This Subject; That Is, I Saw No Attempt Made To Keep Any Of The Inmates Of The Convent In Ignorance Of The Murder Of Children.

I Often Remembered Also That I Had Been Told, That We Shall Have As Many Devils Biting Us, If We Go To Hell, As We Have Unconfessed Sins On Our Consciences.

We Were Constantly Hearing It Repeated, That We Must Never Again Look Upon Ourselves As Our Own; But Must Remember, That We Were Solemnly And Irrevocably Devoted To God.

Others Too Would Occasionally Entertain And Privately Express Such Doubts; Though We All Had Been Most Solemnly Warned By The Cruel Murder Of Saint Francis.

All Around Me Insisted That My Doubts Proved Only My Own Ignorance And Sinfulness; That They Knew By Experience They Would Soon Give Place To True Knowledge, And An Advance In Religion; And I Felt Something Like Indecision.