Maybe I Should Sit. Plenty Of People

If You Do Have Something You Love To Do, The Fun Part Of The Job Is No Different Than What Was Fun About Doing It In High School For No Money. I Thought There Would Be Some Greater Reward In Succeeding.

I Have To Introduce The Part Of Me That Feels Like A Winner To The Part Of Me Convinced I’m A Loser, And See If They Can’t Agree To Exist Somewhere Closer To The Middle.

I Definitely Wanted To Be An Actor. I Didn't Want To Be On Tv, I Didn't Want To Be Famous, I Didn't Want To Be Anyone In Particular; I Just Wanted To Do It. I See Young People Now Who Look At Magazines, Or American Idol And Their Goal Is To Have That Lifestyle - To Have Good Handbags, Or Go Out With Cute Guys From Shows, Or Whatever. But I Definitely Wanted To Be An Actor.

I Was Always Torn Between Wanting Whatever I Pictured As A Typical High School Experience And That Being Just A Part I Wanted To Play. I've Written About This, But One Of Those Typical High School Experiences Was Drill Team. Like, I Just Really Wanted To Wear A Uniform And Get On The Bus And Be Part Of This Group. As An Only Child, The Idea Of Blending In - And Literally Everyone Being In Sync And Not Standing Out At All - Felt Like Kind Of A Fun Family Thing.

The Thing You Must Really Do In Television Is Bring Yourself To Everything You Do - You Can't Try To Be Anybody Else.