Maybe I Fear Things Going Wrong So

In Many Ways, Not Fitting In Has Been A Comedic Asset And A Comedic Resource.

I Really Hated Fighting People And Hurting Them, But Felt Unable To Stop.

Whenever You're In Any Acting Role You Are Mortgaging Your Own Character.

I Had A Longing For Ritual, Something I Could Cling To, A Routine To Make Me Feel Well And Contented. I Hoped That Reading Bible Commentaries And Theological Critiques Would Nudge Me Closer To Some Kind Of Absolute That I Could Hold Up As A Torch To Light My Way.

In Particular, I Found Praying Very Disturbing, Like Swimming With Bricks Tied To Your Feet. And Yet I Was Drawn To It Constantly.