I've Never Understood People Who Play Up

You'd Hope That No Writing About Music Could Supersede The Music Itself. But I Do Think That Blogs Mirror The Way That We Are Listening. It Comes At You Fast And It's Timely And Then Five Minutes Later We're On To Something Else. It Caters To Our Desire For Instant Gratification. And I Think Blogs Also Have Fluidity That's Exciting. You Have A Lot Of Real Enthusiastic Music Fans For The Most Part That Are Writing Sometimes For A Large Audience, And I Think Certain Blogs Have A Little Too Much Power Over What Someone Likes Or Doesn't Like.

The Idea Of Self-effacement, The Idea That You Feel So Powerless That The Only Tiny Morsel Of Power You Have Is Over Your Own Ability To Deny Yourself Food - That To Me Is A Very Profound And Sad Methodology And Indicator Of How Powerless A Lot Of People Feel In This World. That They Will Turn That Onto Themselves Until They Are Physically Smaller. I Think It's Affected My Worldview A Lot - Just Being Sensitive And Empathetic Towards The Ways People Want To Be Small. I Don't Wish Smallness For Anyone.

For A While I Had Somebody That Came To Clean My House That Turned Out To Be In A Band That I Really Loved.

I Grew Up Outside Of Seattle, And Have Lived Here My Whole Life, And I Think That There Is A Culture Of Questioning, And Guilt. Almost An "anti-ambition." Like, An Awareness, And Then A Subsequent Guilt. But Sometimes That Progressive, Liberal Guilt Is Really Obnoxious, Too - In Some Ways, I Think It's Better To Just Own It. It's Weird, That Actually, The Acknowledgement Of Privilege Or The Enactment Of Guilt Can Be As Obnoxious As Anything Else. It's A Never-ending Rabbit Hole. We're Really In A Rabbit Hole Right Now, With This Conversation. We're Just Spiraling Down Into The Void.

Once You're Away From Music, I Realize That's As Intrinsic To Who I Am As Anything Else. That's The Part That Takes Me Out Of My Brain.