It's The Familiar Love-hate Syndrome Of Seduction:

De Omnibus Dubitandum

So Blind Is The Curiosity By Which Mortals Are Possessed, That They Often Conduct Their Minds Along Unexplored Routes, Having No Reason To Hope For Success, But Merely Being Willing To Risk The Experiment Of Finding Whether The Truth They Seek Lies There.

For How Do We Know That The Thoughts Which Occur In Dreaming Are False Rather Than Those Others Which We Experience When Awake, Since The Former Are Often Not Less Vivid And Distinct Than The Latter?

If ... It Is Not In My Power To Arrive At The Knowledge Of Any Truth, I May At Least Do What Is In My Power, Namely, Suspend Judgement.

Sensations Are Nothing But Confused Modes Of Thinking.