I'm In Good Shape. My Cancer Means

You Have Visits, Then You Have Disappearances. You Enter, Then You Exit. You Come, You Go. It Would Be So Great If You Could Just Get To Human Enlightenment On A Linear Path.

Trauma Dissociates Us From The Parts Of Our Body That Are Wounded, So We Have To Leave Our Whole Body. It's A Journey You Take Your Whole Life, That Coming Back In, Re-landing In Your Body, In Your Self, On The Earth. I Think One Of The Reasons It's Been So Easy, In A Way, For Us To Violate Both Women And The Earth Is This Profound Dissociation That Exists In Everyone.

Each Time I Had Five Hours Of The Poison Going Into Me, I Just Pictured Everything That Needed To Be Burned Away. I Pictured Wars, I Pictured The Things My Father Had Done To Me, I Pictured Brutality, And When It Was Over, I Am Light.

I'm In Good Shape. My Cancer Means I Have Lost A Lot Of Organs And I'm A Lot Lighter. I Have Devoted Myself To Yoga And I'm Doing Handstands.

Some Days I Would Get So Exhausted, Nauseous, In Pain - Just From Going Back Through Things. It's Almost As If I Had The Experience And Then The Meta-experience.