I'm A Huge Freak, And Always Have

That's The Day I Realized That There Was This Entire Life Behind Things, And This Incredibly Benevolent Force That Wanted Me To Know There Was No Reason To Be Afraid, Ever... Sometimes There's So Much Beauty In The World, I Feel Like I Can't Take It, And My Heart Is Going To Cave In.

I Think It's Very Difficult, And It Requires A Tremendous Amount Of Spiritual Integrity And Discipline, To Not Be A Narcissist In A Culture That Encourages It Every Step Of The Way.

And As I Stumbled Onto Eastern Philosophy And Buddhism, It Was The First Time I Had Ever Read Any Sort Of Philosophy That Really Made A Tremendous Amount Of Sense. What I Liked That Was Missing From My Experience Of Christianity Growing Up Was A Sort Of Acceptance, A Sort Of Being Ok With Being Imperfect And Not Focusing On The Sin.

I Need To Feel Like The Work I'm Doing Is Not Necessarily Important, But Meaningful, At Least To Me, Because Otherwise It Just Becomes A Day Job. It Just Becomes Factory Work And I Get Really Frustrated.

Racism Is Ridiculous No Matter Where It's Coming From.