I Was Very Active In The Peace

I Was With Brian De Palma At The Time, And He Said He Wrote The Role Specifically For Me. I Don't Know What That Says About The Way He Saw Me, Since The Role Was Of A Castrating Killer. Brian Came One Morning To The House, Said "here's Your Christmas Present." He Wrote The Character To Have A Swedish Accent, But Since I Couldn't Pull That Off, He Switched It To French-canadian. It Was Such A Romantic Time In My Life. Everyone Was Young And Passionate And Convinced They Were Going To Change Film Forever.

We Were Sweet, Lovely People Who Wanted To Throw Out All The Staid Institutions Who Placed Money And Wars Above All Else. When You're Young You Think That's How Life Works.

I Wandered Around Not Knowing What I Was Doing In The Great Waldo Pepper And Feeling Pretty Lost, And They Rightly Cut My Part Down. I Don't Think I Was In Very Good Emotional Shape. I Think I Was A Bit Of A Mess. I'd Done About Six Movies Back-to-back, And Was In A State Of Complete Exhaustion.

I Guess I Came To Terms With My Demons. Or Else I'd Be In Big Trouble, Wouldn't I? Horrifying As It Was To Crack Up In The Public Eye, It Made Me Look At Myself And Fix It. People Were Exploitative; That's Human Nature. I'll Tell You, Being Pretty Crazy While Being Chased By The National Enquirer Is Not Good. The British Tabloids Were The Worst. But You Take The Cards You're Dealt, And I Got Better. I'm Now Ferociously Healthy In Body And Mind. You Couldn't Pay Me To Go Near A Psychiatrist Again. Stopping Seeing Them Was My First Step To Getting Well.

Theres This Unspoken Club Where You Say To Each Other: Oh God, If They Only Knew How Ordinary I Was, They Wouldnt Be Interested. That Includes Movie Stars And Politicians.