I Thought About That For A Minute

Maybe You'll Get Lucky." I Said Bleakly, Lurching On My Feet. "maybe I'll Get Hit By A Truck On My Way Back.

Vampirism, For Me, Was A Way To Live In Fantasy And Have Superpowers, But Not Just In A Really Perfect, Happy, Everything Is Great Way. It's Superpowers With A Cost. It's Having To Be The Villain, And What Do You Do About That.

It Will Be As If I'd Never Existed. The Words Ran Through My Head, Lacking The Perfect Clarity Of My Hallucination Last Night. They Were Just Words, Soundless, Like Print On A Page. Just Words, But They Ripped The Hole Wide Open, And I Stomped On The Brake, Knowing I Should Not Drive While This Incapacitated. I Curled Over, Pressing My Face Against The Steering Wheel And Trying To Breathe Without Lungs.

From That First Little Touch, The Whole World Had Shifted. Where Before There Was Just One Thing I Could Not Live Without, Now There Were Two. There Was No Division – My Love Was Not Split Between Them Now; It Wasn’t Like That. It Was More Like My Heart Had Grown, Swollen Up To Twice Its Size In That Moment. All That Extra Space, Already Filled. The Increase Was Almost Dizzying.

Don't Let Anyone Tell You That High School Is Supposed To Be Fun. High School Is To Be Endured. College Is Fun.