I Put The Pistol By My Head,

I Remember Crying All The Time. My Major Thing Growing Up Was I Couldn't Fit In. Because I Was From Everywhere, I Didn't Have No Buddies That I Grew Up With...every Time I Had To Go To A New Apartment, I Had To Reinvent Myself, Myself. People Think Just Because You Born In The Ghetto You Gonna Fit In. A Little Twist In Your Life And You Don't Fit In No Matter What. If They Push You Out Of The Hood And The White People's World, That's Criminal...hell, I Felt Like My Could Be Destroyed At Any Moment.

I'm Not Really A Religious Person. But I Believe That God Wants Me To Do Something And It Has To Do With Thug Life.

I Know Death Follows Me, But I Murder Him First.

My Mother Taught Me Three Things, Respect, Knowledge-search For Knowledge, It's An Eternal Journey. That's Like My Hair-cut, The Line, 360 Degrees, Find Knowledge Always. And She Taught Me To Not Be Quiet, If There's Something On My Mind Speak It. But Also To Listen.

I Remember Marvin Gaye Used To Sing To Me, He Had Me Feelin' Like Black Was The Thing To Be.