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In Lilly's Eyes Her Beautiful Clear Water Eyes There Is What I Have Sought And Never Found, Wanted And Never Had, Hoped For And Never Discovered. Love.

I Go To My Room And I Drink And I Smoke Some Cigarettes And I Think About Her. I Drink And I Smoke And I Think About Her And At A Certain Point Blackness Comes And My Memory Fails Me.

Coming After All The Bullshit Related To A Million Little Pieces, Nobody Was Expecting Anything From Me. No Publisher, No Agent, No One. Just Me And The Book. It Was Great.

The Calm. If There Is God Or Something Higher For Me It Is This. The Calm. If There Is Something That Will Hold Me When I Need To Hold It Is This The Calm. There Is No Anger, No Rage, No Fury. There Is No Want, No Need, No Desire. There Is No Hatred No Shame No Regret. There Is No Grief, No Sadness, No Depression. There Is No Fear. Absolutely No Fear. When One Lives Without Fear, One Cannot Be Broken. When One Lives With Fear One Is Broken Before One Begins To Live.

But We Are What We Are, And Humans Will Always Hate.