I Have To Work, For My Soul.

Because The Truth Is, Nobody Knows What's Best For You Better Than You Do. You Have To Really Sit Still And Ask Yourself: What Do I Want? Does This Feel Right? What Should I Do? I Realized I Had To Go Back And Do What I Had Always Done. Listening To My Gut Was Just As Important As Listening To The Advice Of Others, And Only I Knew What Was Best For Me.

In My Mind I First Felt Like, Oh, I'll Be Back To Work Right After The Babies Are Born. But Then You Don't Want To. Even Now, It's Very Difficult For Me To Leave Them In The Morning. It Just Tortures Me. I'm Like, It's Been Hours; Are They Wondering Where I Am? Do They Know That I Love Them So Much And I'm Thinking Only About Them?

I Went To Catholic School For 12 Years And Went To Church Every Sunday. I May Not Do That Anymore But I Think It Gave Me A Good Basis. I've Also Explored Things On My Own Different Philosophies And Spiritual Teachings And I Use What Works For Me.

I Grew Up In The Bronx Where You Would Stay Up Late With Your Girlfriends, Just Being Silly In Our Bedrooms, Whatever. And I Was Always The Clown.

Until You Value Yourself Enough And Love Yourself Enough To Know That, You Can't Really Have A Healthy Relationship.