I Have Met Almost Everyone I've Wanted

I Always Have This Fear That One Day You Are Going To Discover That I'm Not As Great As You Once Thought I Was. Nothing Feels As Good As Skinny Feels.

Everyone's Projecting Onto You, Or You Feel Like Everyone Is Judging You. I Feel Like I'm Being Judged A Lot Of The Time. You Become Really Self-conscious.

I'm Not Really A Fashion Designer. I Just Love Clothes. I've Never Been To Design School. I Can't Sketch. I Can't Cut Patterns And Things. I Can Shorten Things. I Can Make A Dress Out Of A Scarf.

I Don't Want To Be Myself, Ever. I'm Terrible At A Snapshot. Terrible. I Blink All The Time. I've Got Facial Tourette's. Unless I'm Working And In That Zone, I'm Not Very Good At Pictures, Really.

Now I'm Being Blamed Not Only For Anorexia But For Lung Cancer.