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I Was Brought Up, And My Sister Too, With Two People Who Were Always Saying, "what You Do Is Really Nowhere Near As Important As The Things That Are Going On In The World, And If Your Work Needs To Reflect That, Or You Want It To, Then You Need To Strive For A Certain Type Of Excellence."

I Was Trying To Figure Out Where My Intellect, If I Really Have One, Where It Fit. And So I Was Searching. I Really Didn't Know Who I Was Or What I Really Wanted To Be, And In That Search, Like I Think You Do As An Actor, You End Up Trying To Define Whatever That Is, And I Sort Of Said, "oh Well, Searching Spiritually In A Way Is Interesting, And Eastern Religion Seems To Be About A Search."

I'm At A Period In My Life When I'm Figuring Out My Idea Of Who I Am And What I Want And How To Hold Onto Love -- All That Big Stuff. And I'm Starting To Realize That It Can Happen At Any Age. I Know People Who Are In Their 50s Who Are Figuring Out What They Want And Who They Are, And I Think It's Great. It's Like You're Always Approaching Life As A Beginner.

As An Actor, I Feel Like I'm Somebody Who, When Somebody Gives Me A Mark, I Don't Want To Hit It. I Don't Like That. But Then, Without Even Knowing It, I Just Hit It.

I Remember Watching Meryl Streep In, The River Wild. There's This Scene Where She's Has A Gun Pointed At Her, It's Absurd In A Lot Of Ways. Someone Pulls A Gun On Her I Think, I'm Not Really Fully Aware Of The Scene And She Just, She Starts, You See Her Terrified. And Then All Of A Sudden She Starts To Burst Out Laughing. She Starts Laughing. Like She Can't Stop Laughing. Because She's Terrified And She's Emotional And There Are No Rules To What You're Supposed To Feel. That To Me Is Like A Number One, That's The Thing I Have To Remind Myself All The Time.