I Figure The Faster I Pedal, The

One Of The Redeeming Things About Being An Athlete Is Redefining What Is Humanly Possible.

Two Things Scare Me. The First Is Getting Hurt. But That's Not Nearly As Scary As The Second, Which Is Losing.

Suffering, I Was Beginning To Think, Was Essential To A Good Life, And As Inextricable From Such A Life As Bliss. It’s A Great Enhancer. It Might Last A Minute, But Eventually It Subsides, And When It Does, Something Else Takes Its Place, And Maybe That Thing Is A Great Space. For Happiness. Each Time I Encountered Suffering, I Believed That I Grew, And Further Defined My Capacities – Not Just My Physical Ones, But My Interior Ones As Well, For Contentment, Friendship, Or Any Other Human Experience.

There's No Rule, No Law, No Regulation That Says You Can't Come Back. So I Have Every Right To Come Back.

If I Was Racing In 2015, No, I Wouldn't Do It Again Because I Don't Think You Have To. If You Take Me Back To 1995, When Doping Was Completely Pervasive, I Would Probably Do It Again.