I Don't Convey That I Can Be

You Don't Have To Talk To Someone To Think About Them And Check Up On Them Now And Again.

When You Are In A Relationship, You Are Aware That It Might End. You Might Grow Apart, Find Someone Else, Simply Fall Out Of Love. But A Friendship Isn't A Zero-sum Game, And As Such, You Assume That It Will Last Forever, Especially An Old Friendship. You Take Its Permanence For Grandted, Whuch Might Be The Very Thing So Dear About It.

It's Like When Someone Dies, The Initial Stages Of Grief Seem To Be The Worst. But In Some Ways, It's Sadder As Time Goes By And You Consider How Much They've Missed In Your Life. In The World.

Looking Back, I Question Whether I Really Loved Nate, Or Just The Security Of Our Relationship. I Wonder If My Feelings For Him Didn’t Have A Lot To Do With Hating My Job. From The Bar Exam Through That First Hellish Year As An Associate, Nate Was My Escape. And Sometimes That Can Feel An Awful Lot Like Love.

One Way Isn't Better Than The Other; They're Just Different.