By Nature I Am Not Tough, Believe

It Was Easy To Blame Other People For Treating Me In Ways I Didn't Like, But Now I Was Seeing That I Was The One At Fault. The Only Way You Can Be Mistreated Is By Allowing Yourself To Be Mistreated, And That Was Something I Did Over And Over Again. Somehow, I Needed To Find That Glimmer Of Self-respect, Buried Deep Inside, That Would Allow Me To Say: I Am Never Going To Let That Happen To Me Again. I Needed To Learn How To Stand Up For Myself In A Different Way, But I Didn't Know How.

In The Past, Love For Me Has Always Meant Forever, And Sure, You Still Nurse Some Of Those Fantasies, But I Don't Try To Force It Anymore. I Hung On To My Fairy-tale Ideals For A Long Time. But Where I Am Now, What I've Been Through, There Are No Rules. There Are Lots Of Ways It Can Turn Out.

I Just Think That The Whole Diva Thing Is A Misrepresentation Of Who I Am.

When I See Puff In A Video Kissing Someone, It's Freaky And I Know It's Freaky For Him To See Me Do A Movie Love Scene, But As Far As Him Forbidding Me To Do Them, That's Bull.

I'm Living The Life I Always Dreamed Of Living. From The Time I Was A Youngster I Wanted To Be A Celebrity. It's A Great Life. The Only Bad Thing Is That People Are More Interested In Your Personal Life Than They Are In Your Work And It's Freaky