As Much As I Would Have Liked

I Like It When You're Under The Ocean, And All You Can Feel Is Calm

I Feel Like A Blonde Nothingness, Alone In My Own Body ...... Today It's Not Drugs That Fill My Body, Its Despair.

I Was Thinking I Would Miss The Rain. I Wonder If You Can Experience The Rain In Heaven, If God Will Let You Dip Your Wings Down... But My Biggest Expectation Now Is Just To Live. I Will Not Go Gently Into That Goodnight.

As Much As I Would Have Liked To Have Kept My Cancer Private, I Now Realize That I Have A Certain Responsibility To Those Who Are Fighting Their Own Fights And May Be Able To Benefit From Learning About Mine.

But I Must Never Forget How Blessed I Have Been. God Has Given Me Gifts And Happiness, Beyond Any Of My Simple Desires. My Deepest Desire Now Is To Simply Live... So With Hope And Determination, I'd Hold On And Go On.