A Nickname Is Not Supposed To Be

By Nature I Am Not Tough, Believe It Or Not.

And I Never Ask What I'm Doing The Next Day. I Don't Want To Know What I'm Doing Tomorrow. It's Much Too Overwhelming. So I Just Go Day By Day, Without Knowing.

It's Not That I Didn't Love Myself Before. Sometimes We Don't Realize That We Are Compromising Ourselves. To Understand That A Person Is Not Good For You, Or That That Person Is Not Treating You In The Right Way, Or That He Is Not Doing The Right Thing For Himself - If I Stay, Then I Am Not Doing The Right Thing For Me. I Love Myself Enough To Walk Away From That Now.

I'm Also Influenced By All The Places I've Traveled Since Then: I've Been To Hollywood And Great Fashion Shows And Seen The World. I Have A Different Perspective, And I Mix That Up.

It Was Easy To Blame Other People For Treating Me In Ways I Didn't Like, But Now I Was Seeing That I Was The One At Fault. The Only Way You Can Be Mistreated Is By Allowing Yourself To Be Mistreated, And That Was Something I Did Over And Over Again. Somehow, I Needed To Find That Glimmer Of Self-respect, Buried Deep Inside, That Would Allow Me To Say: I Am Never Going To Let That Happen To Me Again. I Needed To Learn How To Stand Up For Myself In A Different Way, But I Didn't Know How.